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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Loss

I have a classmate whose father has cancer and is undergoing palliative care right now in Traralgon...and according to her, he is "quickly fading away"...My heart aches whenever I think of her plight...

Already sent her a card to brighten up her day a little..and sent some encouraging words..and offered to help in any way that I can...

That's it....there's so little that I can do...while she is in some hospital in Traralgon, facing the loss of a significant person in her life...

Jess,
May the tears that flow from your eyes help to alleviate your agony...
May the thoughts that you think be positive...
May your heart accept this excruciating loss as well as it can...
And we, your friends, will always fill your ears with words of encouragement..provide a listening ear for all your woes...and do wadever we can in our actions to help u get thru this difficult time...

x hikari is wasting his time at 7:36 PM x

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Saturday, July 15, 2006

One more video of my crazy friend..Ethan...hee hee...

x hikari is wasting his time at 3:00 PM x

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Sunday, July 02, 2006

Thoughts

Its amazing how a few weeks being apart from the rest of the gang can change so many things...New relationships form...Cliques change...people whom u think were ur closest buddies somehow seem less important now...and u realise how much u really depended on the few who are arnd u to survive through the holidays...

We've become so close in such a short time....and i guess it'll continue for a while...and i have the feeling that I'll feel sad when I step onto that flight leaving for Sydney...even though I'm only leaving the two of u for 2 days...but the bond that we've built is so strong...i feel it even when its ripped by a little...

After all this time, I feel so disconnected from those who are in Singapore...and i probably wont want to be around them when they talk about how much fun they had back home...and the inside jokes they'll have...I hate feeling so enstranged from one another.....

Spent the whole day alone in my rm today...quite depressing to be stuck in such a small place with nothing better to do...kerf's at the coldplay concert in the city, jasmine's probably at trs's place...jonathan doesnt hang out with us that much...so here i am...left alone...i hate being alone...

watching a movie/drama on the com wont be as gd as watching the same thing with a close fren arnd...laughing over the jokes in the show, crying over the sad parts..having a fren arnd changes the whole experience...and feels alot better than watching it alone...

without others arnd juz makes it kinda.....dead.....i dunno how else to put it..and i hope u get wad i mean...

and i have quite a bad feeling about sydney...dunno y...maybe its coz its Kings Cross....and we'll be returning late almost everyday...so many things can happen....haha...my frenz tell me its time for me to put my wushu skills to use...hmmm..thinking about it..my coach in singapore once told me he had to stop a thief once...and at the moment when he confronted the thief, he din know where to hit...there were so many pts that he cldnt hit or else he'd kill the guy....

My coach has had more than 30 years experience in wushu...i've only got about 10 years... i'll prob end up like him...thinking too much at the time when its time for me to make the move...and having too much fear in hurting someone else...its not in my nature to harm another...i'll hesitate when i throw a punch...or a kick...i'll try and spare his life...that's me...

then again...there might be something at that point of time that would change me into someone else....someone who is ruthless and merciless...unleashing every bit of rage in him onto the attacker...

i hope i'll never have to be that person..
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Maybe i'm just thinking too much........

x hikari is wasting his time at 7:27 PM x

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